the crystal heart of a fragile soul..

2006-02-15T22:05:00.000+08:00

im sitting here.
are you there?

im still here.

2006-02-14T22:24:00.000+08:00

oh well. sorry for not blogging for soo long xD
wasnt much in the mood to blog anyways hahas.

today. valentine's day.
some history about valentine's day.
valentine was a supposed saint who was convicted of marrying people secretly by the romans.
why, i dont know x)

hahas.
today was a complete fiasco.
1. left late for orchard.
2. was late for the 1st time in my life.
3. NO FREAKING MOVIE TO WATCH.
4. tmr's geog ca.

as you can see i shouldnt be online right now.
but i am.
cos i have to do the stupid ro for this friday's training.
and supposedly, im in charge this friday.
like wtf.

2006-01-20T20:34:00.000+08:00

IMCB.
really really great. not only do you get to live 3 days as a scientist, you also get to meet so many new people :D
would like to thank all the people from nygh rgs and mgs that made this course totally fun. and genie too xD
day 1 was boring cause all of us didnt know each other. but since we had to wait for a total of 4hrs 30 mins on day 2 we all bonded quite well. lame jokes etc courtesy jie hao and me. day 3 was also waiting but felt kinda sad that today was the last day. sigh. dunno if i could ever go back there again.
and oh of course we got to skip 3 days of school as well :D
cheers!
cny next week xD
MONEHH

2006-01-07T20:24:00.000+08:00

school term.
i swear its been a dreary few days.
1st day of school and we had leow ALREADY.
at least drugs isnt too hard to understand.
but then..
1st week of school and THERE WAS A BIO TEST.
revision of all secondary 3 stuffs.
going to have the same for phy and chem too.
blardee hell.
other than that.
chip in some 5 hours of sleep a day and also adding in training with zuraimi on fire + NO COM.
HORRIBLE.
O'S FASTER COME PLEASE.
then i can finally slack :D

2005-12-31T21:24:00.000+08:00

2006 in ~3 hours time! lol.

well better get down doing this.

things that made 2005 complete
1. 3D05``
2. obs 5-9 september`
3. sec3 camp xD
4. my friends, juniors, seniors. maybe enemies too? rofl.
5. never giving up hope.`

happy memories.
1. knowing all the wonderful people at obs.
2. passing out as 2nd sgt after spec course.
3. wearing my lanyard for the 1st time.
4. wearing no.1 and marching in front of at least a thousand in the ncc day parade.
5. hanging outs withs my bro.

sad ones T_T
1. breakups and the works.
2. getting screwed in ncc.
3. big big hole in lip that let to 6 painful stitches.
4. missing out on psl convention
5. missing out on a chance to become spsl

things of 2006 that i wish to see.
1. find a someone to share my feelings with
2. 6-8 pts for the 'o's!!! xD
3. w900i
4. stop making fun of people xD
5. not getting screwed for holiday hw. i wish x)

resolving to be nicer to people. more sensitive to other people? hahas. and also being able to werk hard for the o's. and most of all being in control of my life`.

with that. my 2005 is OVERRRR x)

2005-12-27T18:24:00.000+08:00

5 more days. and its the new year~
should start thinking of my new year's resolution.
yepp.

really really afraid of next year. especially in 10 mths time.
i mean. which 15 year old this year isnt?
hahas.

whatever.

2005-12-25T20:15:00.000+08:00

christmas eve and christmas.
eve was the usual dinner at millenia walk.
stuff there was mostly the same.
i had a BIG FAT HAM for my entree.
wasnt really filling.
but the weird dessert did.
brandy-soaked raisin cake and ice cream. :D
christmas (today incidentally) meant narnia.
and i watched it with nessa.
amazing what a public holiday can do to a cinema.
instead of an almost empty cinema, what we had was a choke-full one.
seats all taken up. well mostly..
still got nice seats even though we bought the tix 10min before time.
hahas.
this proves the theory by me and mh.
"whenever timothy is along, its front row seats."
how true. its going to be made into a law 10 years time~
:D
only thing recieved this christmas is zhiyan's pampers card.
which is hard to read.
and jarren you got one too.
so come collect it if you want to.
ok. should stop here now.

2005-12-15T02:00:00.000+08:00

ness what you said was true. i still like her i guess. but then she'll never be mine.
oh. go to the link *]JaEkieL][=
read about the interesting part about a typical heartland scene of tiny Singapore.
its really sad that adults fight. but to do so in front of so many people? and children even?
no wonder there are so many punks out there. because their dads are the same
obs outing again soon. another one. this time we are going to watch king kong xD
hope it would be nice.
chicken little was cute and typical of a disney movie.
not as horrible as minghao made it out to be xD
hahas.
ehh. why am i typing his name on my blog.
it'll just make his head already over-inflated with narcissm swell.
hope i got that correct. otherwise ill never hear the end of it.

Pug Jelly - Ransom Letter

So you stole my heart
And left me a ransom letter
Demanding I treat you better
Should I ever want it back and
Now I'm all alone
Dreams are all forgotten
Memories all turned rotten
It's not the same on the phone

So what's up girl?
Things haven't changed a bit since we last met
I bet my bottom dollar you're the best, girl that I ever had
I never wanna lose you
So what's up?

I can't let you walk away
We planned to live forever
In each others arms
So......
Please hold on
You know no one will love you like i do
And that's the thing you know it too

So what's up girl?
Things haven't changed a bit since we last met
I bet my bottom dollar you're the best, girl that I ever had
I never wanna lose you
So what's up?

I hear our song; it keeps playing on the radio
You're on my mind, I can't let you go
I'm all alone and I just want you to hold
Please take my hand. never let me go
I hear our song it keeps playing on the radio
You're on my mind, I can't let you go
Please make your mind up, don't see what the future holds

So what's up girl?
Things haven't changed a bit since we last met
I bet my bottom dollar you're the best, girl that I ever had
I never wanna lose you
So what's up?

2005-12-13T10:29:00.000+08:00

chicken little later!! xD
its so cute~
on the other hand. i'm so freaking tired now O_O
cant even type properly.
I NEED TO SLEEP EARLIER T_T

2005-12-11T18:28:00.000+08:00

meant to blog much much earlier. but then was too lazy to. xD
okay aeon flux was cool with its effects. and then the storyline was quite new. but then if you dont like movies without meaning i dont think you'll like it lolx.
uhh..
had sleepless nights lately. I MUST GET OVER HERR.
sigh.
but i dont want to.
ssc gathering soon. then maybe ill forget about her.
hope so..

you hit the shatterpoint of my crystalline heart.

movies!

2005-12-05T18:29:00.000+08:00

FINALLY found people to watch aeon flux and chicken little with me.
most likely aeon flux is going to be tomorrow and the ever-so-cute chicken little is going to be next week :D
holidays are so DEAD.
thats what led me to do those lame quizzes. and the results are <. below my links lol.
mm. most likely not going to get a tagboard. cos it'll look so dead T_T
dont think anyone even vists here xD
ah well. not really an issue. at least i know 10k+ people visited my previous blog of 1.5 years xD
thats little i know. no need to rub it in hahas.
OMG I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I TYPED IN xD
RETARD~ im going crazyyy

staff sergeant~

2005-12-03T20:50:00.000+08:00

hahas. finally my senior specialist course is over. and what did we do there?
wait. and wait. and wait T_T
lolx
well. at least 3 days of waiting has paid off. IVE GOT MY STAFF SERGEANT RANK xD
heehee.
and i wasnt nominated for best cadet when the other 4 were T_T
what a shame. cause i didnt even try lolx.
ahhahas whats done is done. and ya. i dont mind.
cause i'll almost definitely lose out to the other people. and be a nominee for 4 times in a row.
then that'll be retarded. xD
hahas. off to catch up with 3 days of lost time :D

2005-11-29T12:52:00.000+08:00

had the weirdest dream yesterday.
i dreamt about herr =/
weird huh.
especially when i said i was emancipated xD
bleahs.
dream was kinda weird.
my math tuition teacher was in it too.
maybe i had this dream cause im feeling guilty?
both about herr and about missing 3 math tuitions?
well i dont think ill ever know.
hahas.

dreams are unique!! xD

tired.

2005-11-27T00:08:00.000+08:00

went to play basketball yesterday. nth much to say boutt it really. just another day at the court..

then went home. bathed and went downstairs to the function room.
and i got the shock of my life.
THE WHOLE BASEMEMT IN MY BLOCK WAS BLACK.
apparently my brother and his friends overused a power socket and tripped a fuse.
they got it replaced though.
then while i was playing table tennis with my bro's friends.
the damn lights tripped again xD
and so we played table tennis in the dark. with some lights from our kewl phones of course.
(thank you sony ericsson!)
then someone came down. and told us the minature circuit breaker was blown. wow.
and then they all had to stop their *lovely* steamboat and teppanyaki.
lolx.

stayed with my bro's friends throughout the day.
mostly listened to them reminiscie about their primary school days xD
and later we played really silly games, like 'big fish, small fish' and 'animal game'
everyone got really tired and some slept.
one had to go for his youth flying club test today =/
wonder how he did.

sigh.
dunno whether i'll still keep close contact with my primary school friends.
they all seem so dead.
so few of them turned up for teacher's day too.
T_T

i'm emancipated!
XD

jeans.

2005-11-24T18:41:00.000+08:00

went out with my obs friends yesterday to watch harry potter. hahas the movie was nice but im not going to say anymore than that. otherwise ill be spoiling the show for others xD just that the story line has changed quite abit =/

while waiting for the show to start we walked from ps to wisma. and we got jia hao a pair of jeans xD from samuel & kelvin. it cost $49 =/
and i just realised that all my jeans are at least $70+.
cos they mostly are levi's xD

well. we smuggled food we bought from carrefour into the cinema and didnt get caught :D
but i couldnt finish the damn potato chips LOL.

fooled around so much yesterday that i fell asleep at 11+
what an achievement :D
cos ive been sleeping at around 2+ this holidays.

IM PROUD OF MYSELF XD

gotta start swimming soon.
mh's mom said that ive put on weight T_T
ah well.

2005-11-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

sigh.
my keyboard died.
this is my second hardware dying this year. first one to go was my mouse.
argh. why did they go for no apparent reason? fking lame.

played basketball today. mehs.
owned the 1st team of some noob basketball team but we lost to the other.
i mean like wtf?
you arent supposed to lose to some losers who didnt make the 1st team wad. =/
lolx

been thinking about it.
if she doesnt want me then fine.
i dont need her anyways.
:D

move on.

2005-11-20T08:51:00.000+08:00

well. modblog's down again. and i'll switch over to blogspot. indefinitely this time. hmmpf.
this blink182 skin's sthing i took off blogskin. am still trying my best to make it look nicer. xD well. im not very good at html or wad lahs. just barely able to recognize what some tags are used for. others really leave me blur xD.

kayaking past two days. quite fun lahs. taking my 2 star now. next tuesday's my last day. which means expedition. expedition leader again xD. surely now i'll most likely get my 2 star. and er pei/douglas are both going to waste 7.50 on their harry potter tickets they already bought. cos probably the whole course will end at 3+pm and their tix are for 2.10? hahas.

my lanyard in 12 days time.
i cant wait xD
and after that im going to slack slack and slack some more in ncc. :D

sigh.
i think i've already lost her.
oh well.
time to move on.

i want you..